Burnout

You might have noticed my posts becoming more and more sporadic. This blog and this community means a lot to me, but I have reached a wall where I am not feeling motivated anymore.

I generally don't like to post anything personal, but I think this is something that we all suffer with at one point. I think working in the library or educational field makes us more susceptible to it. This is especially true during summer reading. 

 I am not sharing this as a way to whine, but  I feel like it is an important lesson on my road to joining the library field profession. 

Can I be real for a moment? Working two jobs and going to school full time is tough. My only time off is during the week is the weekend which is generally spent at my other job or getting caught up on chores, homework, and laundry that I couldn't get done during the week. Weeks go by where I don't have time off. Then weeks blend into months that turn into years.


Lately, I've noticed myself battling a terrible spell of insomnia. I have been taking laps around my apartment building until about 2 a.m. in effort to try and get a few hours of sleep in. This happens occasionally, but I really felt like something was really wrong when I started to feel like my work didn't matter. I love my jobs and my best friend and loved ones knew something was wrong when I made a comment that I didn't want to go to work and that I was thinking of quitting.

When I made that comment, my best friend looked at me like I was an alien, and they made a comment that I didn't act or look like myself.

I confessed that I felt like I haven't been myself in a long time. It feels like I wake up to work and work all day until it is time to go to bed- only to do the same thing the next day. They looked at me with confusion and said, "It sounds like you are burnout."

Burnout? What's that? I have used the expression before when I felt exhausted and I have heard it on TV, but what does that mean?

According to Helpguide.org, burnout is a state of emotional, mental, and physical exhaustion. It occurs when you feel overwhelmed, emotionally drained, and unable to meet constant demands. It can be magnified with certain personality types like perfectionist or high achieving personalities like type A, jobs, and bad personal habits.  This leads to an emotional break down. 

It is suggested that everyone know the warning signs which are : 

1. Chronic Fatigue 
2. Insomnia 
3. Forgetfulness or loss of concentration 
4. Physical symptoms such as chest pain, dizziness, headaches, and shortness of breath. 
5. More prone to sickness 
6. Loss of appetite. 
7. Anxiety 
8. Depression 
9. Anger 

If you suspect you might have these signs, try taking an online test  and seek a counselor for help. These simple resources can help you determine your burnout to help you in seeking help. 

 Even though burnout is more common with certain types of jobs, it can happen to anyone. Many suggest that burnout is a quiet pandemic sweeping our nation. We are required to work more and as a result we are left with less time for ourselves and our families. So what do we do? 

1. Talk to your employer and let them know what is going on. 
2. Take time off & leave work at work 
3. Exercise and eat healthy 
4. Try meditation 
5, Take at least one day off a week where you don't do anything. 
6. Make time for your friends and family  
7. Seek medical help 

I am slowly making my way through this list, but I still have a bit before I can take off work. I am planning on a vacation next week though. I am hoping for a book vacation where I can read Harry Potter and the Cursed Child on some sort of beach. Fingers crossed! Until then, I guess I will just day dream about the beach. 



Have you ever experienced burnout? What's your story and how did you overcome it? 

- Pamela








The Glass Castle


The Glass Castle 
By: Trisha White Priebe & Jerry B. Jenkins 


The Story 

It is thirteen-year old Avery's birthday. Instead of spending her birthday stuck inside, Avery decides to go into the woods with her brother. Going out into the forest alone is strictly against her father's rules, but it is her special day and she is determined to enjoy it. This enjoyment doesn't last long, however, Avery is being followed. She grabs her brother and finds safety in a tree house that her father built for her. They wait. When they think the danger is past, they slowly creep out. An old lady grabs them and puts them in a cage. Avery spends hours wondering what will happen to her next. Finally, the wagon stops. Avery is let out and is met by other children who are all thirteen. She is tired and scared, but she notices that her brother is no longer with her. The old lady tells her she must do what she is told or her brother will die. A girl named Kate takes Avery to get clothes and rest. It is there that Avery finds out that she is living among a community of kidnapped children. She must find a way to get out to save her brother, but as secrets unravel, she finds out that she is connected to the community of children in more ways then one. 

Strengths 

This book is engrossing, original, and faith based. Even though this book is faith based, it is not an in your face Christian novel. Avery goes to church and the service does mention some verses, but it doesn't dominate the plot.

The plot does seem a little scary on the surface, but I would say it is ironically very family friendly. There are strong themes of kindness, community, hope, and family.

There is just enough action to keep readers wanting more. It would be perfect audio or family book for tweens and their families. I must say it is one of my favorite books of 2016! 

Weaknesses 

I had a difficult time adjusting to the underground children's society. It was difficult for me to take in a 13-year olds talking about marriage and then adjusting the the children run government. I think this annoyance is due to my age. 

When I stopped to think about it why the book was this way, this weakness quickly became a positive. I realized that the theme of the story was that children can do anything & this helps to support that. More importantly. in history we did have children rulers and societies. If this book was read by a family, families could explore these historical connections or even connect it to children heros in the bible. As libraries, we could pair this book with non-fiction titles on this subject. 

If you are an adult reading this book, I would recommend adjusting to this before you read it. You can enjoy the story more in this frame of mind. 

Overall 

I listened to this book on audio and I found myself sitting in parking lots trying to finish up the chapter I was on. I was so addicted I downloaded it on my phone and started to listen to it as I walked between my daily tasks.

I would highly recommend this book to readers who enjoy fantasy. Some great read a likes are: 


I am anxiously waiting for the second book in the series to make its way to my library. 


The next book called The Ruby Moon will be release on October 1, 2016 

Have you read The Glass Castle yet? What did you think? 

-Pamela